Chugging Along

Still creeping along the train tracks slowly, the "muck on the tracks" is still not allowing for any major increase in momentum but it still hasn't stopped me and is actually forcing me to strive for the better.

Had a good day yesterday after a couple of rough ones. Still no exercise but diet was good and even got some study done that night. Reluctantly as I was still in that lazy pattern but studied nonetheless. It has been calm so far today which hopefully will allow for a productive afternoon. My mood over the past two days has been much improved and this correlates accurately with my improvements in diet. Can't emphasise it enough, refine your diet refines your mood. Alpha and Out.

Yesterday's Tip - Incorporating small regular meals really helps refine your mood.Include some healthy veges etc boosts this power even more so. If your feeling crap just go back to basics, avoid the comfort food binge and chow down small portions of healthy food and you'll feel much better.

FOOD DIARY- B= coffee with milk and 1.5 sugars;S= coffee with milk and 1 sugar; L= sml serve baked beans; S= lettuce, capsicin, paremsan cheese; D= lrg serve mince curry and rice, glass milk; S= Nothing; Xtr= 1 gum

EXERCISE DIARY - Nothing

Muck on the Track...

But still grinding along. Had one of those days yesterday where nothing seems to go right and the bad things in life pile up. However it did not rip me to shreds or bring the "Alpha" train to a complete stop, I managed to still get a fair few To Do's done. The past several months of hardships are still going to continue but I now feel empowered and toughened to bring myself through it and arrive at the station in a positive, empowered and strong state. I ain't gonna let it get me down no more.

Diet was average yesterday, definitely contributing to my struggles but still not completely bad. Still managing to chomp down biscuits and lollies before dinner and drink soft drink late at night while watching TV but given the circumstances of yesterday I am content with the overall day's diet.

Life's tough but I am tougher. I will get through this and continue to drive on towards the final station of "Alphadom". Alpha and Out!

Yesterday's Tip: Sometimes, on those really bad days when stuff piles up, I believe it is definately better overall for you to withdraw into your "Safe Place", dig into some Comfort habits such as food, and weather the storm, shielding yourself so you can keep going when it calms down.

FOOD DIARY- B= 4 weetbix with milk and honey, 2 slice wholemeal toast with jam; S= tea; L= Nothing; S= 7 biscuits, glass milk, 7 lollies; D= 3 risoles with gravy, mashed potato, veges, strawberries with ice cream and custard; S= 2 bottles of Ginger Ale; Xtr= 2 gum, 2 lollies

EXERCISE DIARY - Nothing

Lock On...

to the tracks, the Alpha train is resuming the roll after a temporary pitstop. Numerous hazards ahead but Alpha train has been hardened, toughened and reinforced and this time will plow ahead despite the obstacles. That is my general feel and attitude at the moment. Had a decent day were I plowed through my work goals. A majority of my To Dos' yesterday was the management of creditors, not a great job. But just to speak with them, make arrangements and cross them off my list was quite empowering and set me up for a great day. Gunned through Uni, returned to work very tired and hungry which led to internal mood flucuations but made it home had a good dinner and then it the train pulled into the station.

I had planned a run and study that night but unfortuneately I fell into the old pattern of collapsing into bed and watching TV. To make matters worse some of my favourite movies, Crocodile Dundee were on, which I haven't seen for ages. A bit of a set back but easily made up for and in the end I was tired and needed the rest, so all in all no major dramas. Alpha and Out!

Tips From Yesterday: Make a To Do list daily for all things from work to "down time". Crossing items off that list no matter how horrible they were was extremely empowering and set me up for a positive mood.

FOOD DIARY- B= scrambled eggs, thick slice wholemeal bread, cappacino; S & L= Nothing; S= banana muffin; D= rice, med serve meat curry, sambol, sml bowl fruit salad; S= 7 lollies, ginger ale; Xtr= 2 um pieces, can of lemonade

EXERCISE DIARY- Nothing

On the Other Side

As you might have noticed due to another late week of blog scarcity I had a bit of an average end to the week. Basically started from either not eating or eating the wrong food i.e. McDonalds and then spiralled from there. However I feel like I have come out on the other side fine and positive. A good weekend made up of a good combination of work, study and relaxation and snoozing. Rainy weather helped to relax by keeping me indoors.

Today I hit the ground running despite the 5 hours sleep due to a assignment last night. Caught up with the fam for breakfast. Back to work and gunned through all I wanted to get done then off to a decent day of uni. My mood while at Uni fluctuated mainly down and neutral. I think this is mainly due to lack of sleep and food so so long as I manage it, it shouldn't have any lasting effects.

After a bit of a fail week in the Super Saver Diet (~$25), I intend to try again for under the $10 mark this week. Also continuing to re evaluate my focus and life goals ontop of my immediate goals. All in all a good day. Alpha and Out

Deadweight

A night run with my little brother last night felt like I was walking through wet concrete. It ended up being more of a stroll with a bit of running. I had had a big dinner an hour or so before the run and my calves were sore from the muddy Oztag game on Monday night. Even then it just felt like my whole body was a deadweight. It wasn't draining in the cardio sense but I just couldn't run, my legs felt like lead. I arrived home extremely sore, showered and jumped into bed discomforted by the pain. Not a great run, hopefully this is simply because of the late meal rather than my cardio and anaerobic abilities. It is quite disheartening but I just keep telling myself not to get disheartened, I got myself here and I can get myself back.

Diet was going really well until the afternoon, where having completed all tasks I wanted to get done I left work early. Arriving home early left me craving an arvo snack even though I had had a snack before I left. I had a large afternoon tea and followed that up with a large dinner. Not the best day but definitely not the worst. Alpha and Out!

FOOD DIARY- B= 4 weetbix with milk; S= peanut butter sandwich, tea; L= bowl lettuce with paresan cheese; S= lrg amount of lettuce, tea, 7 biscuits, serve cashews, med serve mashed potato, glass milk; D= lrg serve silverside with white sauce, veges, med serve mashed potato, poached pears, custard, ice cream; S= bottle of ginger ale

EXERCISE DIARY- 1.5 hour walk/run

Good and Muddy

Another good day was racked up yesterday topped off with a wet and muddy game of Oztag. Churned through Uni study before my exam, which I think went well. Then returned to work and sat down and planned out my week in very specific detail. I hope that this planning, in particular, planning my work schedule will stop my afternoon procrastinations. No gym or runs yesterday, just Oztag but that was ok as I will make up for it throughout the week. Oztag was extremely wet and muddy. We played a late game and with some afternoon showers combined with previous games the fields had been torn to shreds and were a real mud bath. We still played though and unfortunately, good sportsmanship cost us the game in the end. Myself and another player decide to play for the other team as they were short several players. This led to me stopping 1-2 tries and ended the game us losing 2-3. It was difficult conditions to run in and the tags were so wet and muddy they often fell off by themselves with out any contact.

Was very happy with my diet yesterday. Several small portions, nothing particularly unhealthy and kept to my $10 weekly food budget by not spending any money. It's all good in the hood, Alpha and Out!

FOOD DIARY- B= 4 weetbix with milk, tea; S= tea; L= bowl lettuce, parmesan cheese; S= 2 slice white bread; D= 2 sausages, mashed potato, salad; S= 3 slice white bread, tea; Xtr= 3 slice white bread, tea

EXERCISE DIARY- 35 min Oztag

The Vision

Since the start of the year where I had written down all of my goals, refocused on where I want to be at and putting things into action I have slowly lost focus of my goals. Also events in the past 3-4 months have forced to to seriously re-evaluate my goals set only 7-8 months ago. Having used a list of goals in slideshow form I want to try something different. I want to use a vision. The vision will be like a little story about what I want to be doing, look like and feel in the future. I am going to write it to evoke all of the senses, the feel of it, the smell, the sight of it and the spiritual vibe of it. I also intend to draw up a pictorial representation of my Vision. I will then break it down into chucks of actions to be taken to fulfill my vision. I am going to do one initially for one year but then when I have time I intend to expand it to 10 years, 20 years down the track.

I am also thinking about how my blog has descended from my journey of weight loss and tips into more of a blog about how the rest of my life is treating me. While I believe it allows for insight into the decisions I am making I also want to bring back more usefull information, tips and tracking of results. Part of this is including my food and exercise diaries in my post rather than on a sidebar (which I left unchanged for weeks and months on end) I also want to use my financial position as a positive rather than a negative. I want to hopefully show that you can loose weight on low income. I am aiming for $10 or less spent on food, at least until I start receiving more funds. I am able to live off such a low amount mainly because living at my Grandparents place provides me with breakfast and dinner and food on the weekends, otherwise I wouldn't be able to live on so little. So this week will hopefully bring about change, positivity and clarity. Alpha and Out!