From Quiet Night to All Night

Getting bus home early yesterday was an average way to end an average week. Feeling extremely unproductive and tired I ended up leaving work early. As I was walking to the station I got to directly across the road only to see my bus drive past. Damn. The next one wasn't for another half hour so I jumped on a bus that I thought would take me close to home. Anyway as usual a negative mood fuels continuing negativity and the bus ended up about twice as far away as I thought it would be. Top this on top of the crappy week, the missing the bus and listening to Nirvana's Nevermind (a great album but made me quite angry) I was ready to call it quits.

The walk home wasn't too bad. Had a great dinner of fried rice and curry. Then my brother came over to be taken care of until Dad could pick him up. Anyway we spent the night watching TV and mucking around on the computer, it was really good to finally chill. However all the screens must've fried my body clock and I ended up awake till 4:00am in the morning, waking up at 8am. Feeling ok, gonna just chill this morning then get stuck into some organisation and study followed by a place-kicking session and gym. Things have gotta be on the Up soon, Alpha and Out!

Stone Cold Stopped

A very full-on week continues to unravel and I again find myself in my "Cocoon". Everyone has their own particular safe place where they retreat to when shit goes rough. Mine is my Grandma and Grandads. Great food, comfort, always supportive and caring without asking for anything in return.

Despite the doom and gloom at the moment, the day is darkest before the dawn, and the dawn is very close. Throughout this time I just gotta believe that there is big positive up ahead because karma always comes around. Right now I am deep inside the Cocoon but slowly starting tonight I will pull myself out do my study and go to the gym. I must position myself to come out of this shadow stronger and motivated. Gotta hit the ground running, Alpha and Out!

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Stop! Stop! You've left the Station too Early

After the pistons began to pump and the wheels began to roll everything came crashing to a halt. The "Stop" factor was again my mental state. While the day began quite well, internet and computer issues soon began to frustrate. Ok, not too much of an issue, I had other work to do. However by mid-arvo this was compounded by my first Genetics lecture which left me completely baffled and pretty confused to be honest. By the end of the day it was compounded further by the usual frustrations that have been plagueing me recently.

This day left me drained, tired and unmotivated. I ended up coming home having a decent dinner, fairly large but still not over the top. After the meal I ended up jumping into bed at that stage still planning to study and go to the gym, I just needed the down time. However as the night grew on the usual concessions were made,...... I can miss the gym tonight, one session won't matter.....I can reschedule my study session, its only the first week. Even then I still couldn't get to sleep till 10ish. A frustrating, draining day but lets see how I can look to mend today.

Back on Track

The gears began to click over this morning. The smoke began to puff. The fires were stoked to life. The Alpha train is pulling away from the overnight station stop off. Today a month or so of frustration was unloaded off the Alpha and things began to settle back to normal. Had a stress-free day of work, had my first Uni lecture back, was able to stick to the study session I had planned and most of all I returned to the gym.

My goal for the gym session was to test the hammy, do arms and chest and if the hammy felt fine on the bike, crank out a light 40 minute bike sesh. Went to the gym closer to home tonight for the first time. It was alright but a bit more crowded being in the "burbs". After a light warm-up on the bike and a stretch the hammy felt fine so I jumped on again and cranked out a decent 40 minute session. To avoid the boredom that sets in during a long tedious set I broke the 40 mins into 5 min sets. This I found very effective to ensure I did the whole time. Unfortunately when I completed my set the weights section was quite busy for late at night and I decided to skip the arms and chest and go home. But a win is still a win and I am finally on the road to recovery for my leg.

It felt weird to be back at Uni today. Even though it has only been 6-8 months off I feel completely removed from the system. This is exactly what I wanted to accomplish, to have time away and heal over the negative feelings I had connected to Uni. My organisational skills has picked up a level and I am hoping to really get stuck into this blog and its sidebar which has come adrift of late. Back in Black baby, Alpha and Out!

A2A Quote of the Week

" Yea but you gotta be proud of yourself, Huckleberry,"

Line from Martin Sheen's Wall Street character

A2A Tip of the Week

What ever your goal big or small, it will become much more achievable when broken down into sub-goals.

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Box It!

After another big day where things don't seem to be going right. Slept in, didn't get much work done, didn't eat anything until all day, had a massive dinner, didn't go to the gym etc. An average day floats familiar thoughts across my mind. The most prominent being "What is wrong with me?" This I am sure is familiar to everyone at some point in their lives often en stilled at some point in their lives where when anything went wrong, you perceived it as something you did wrong. However when you think back and really put some thoughts into it, it is often due to something out of your control. When such an issue faces you, you need to put it mentally at the end of a stick, figure out what went wrong, making sure you think it through a non-critical eye. Then you need to box it up and chuck it at the back warehouse never to be searched for again.

Hoping tomorrow I will start to get things back on track after a couple of days of average diet and no gym. Need to really focus and try to keep fuelling the fire. Alpha and Out!

Feeding the Fire

Isn't the car trip home from work just great. Despite the congestion, pollution and road rage created by such drives it really is a good to time to just sit back and think. Probably better keep some of your mind on the road too, that might be beneficial! This afternoon I was thinking about moving out to a house and how I was going to achieve this next year. I have been living in a unit until recently and am now craving more space and less impact from people living underneath or above you. Anyway I was thinking it through. A thought was hooked out of my sub conscious and was slowly developed in my mind-

I have the desire to begin a personal training business in the future. I was thinking about how such a business could provide opportunity to get a house and fund the subsequent mortgage. This developed into obtaining a house for the business, creating a gym within the house therefore making it a business expense. It then went even further in that I could develop the house into a whole positive and life changing business incorporating a room for mapping goals providing massage etc.

This really ignited the fire for me that had been dimming down recently. Still a pipe dream, perhaps but with some more thinking and work it could be a viable option in the future if not now. This thinking fired up my desire to achieve my predominant goal this year to achieve the "Alpha" body and mind. Because if I kick that goal then I will have in turn increased my drive to achieve other goals and create some massive positive momentum. I need to attempt to capture this drive and these thoughts and produce them on command when I am feeling down or feeling lazy or sleepy. Pumped, Pumped, Pumped! Alpha and Out!

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Breaking the Pattern

A great weekend comes to termination and for the second time in three weeks I managed to break the sleeping all day habit I had developed. On Saturday I was up nice and early to head off fishing up on Somerset Dam. A very chilly start despite sunny weather. Unfortunately the fish avoided us like the plague but still a great peaceful and relaxing day. Ended the trip with one redclaw and three prawns. Considering we paid about 60 dollars in permits it was a bloody expensive keep. Topped the day off babysitting my cousins but spent most of the time there asleep buggered by a long day fishing.

Sunday I reverted back to sleeping but the fact is after the week I had last week I was still operating on a deficit and needed to catch-up sleep. After a poor diet both Saturday and especially today I need to retighten the reins and also begin some gym work again. All and all though a great weekend.

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