...the 18th of April, the gunpowder treason and plo...Wait a minute that ain't right, I am not Guy Fawkes. However I am hoping that today being the 18th of April, 2011 will forever be set in stone as the day that the Alpha finally broke free of his limitations.
So why today?
Simply, I cost my team the Grand Final. Defensive blunders made by myself directly lead to 3 tries. And to add the final nail, the team was targeting me- the bespectacled, unfit guy in a team of strength and speed. Deep down, I am still an athlete at heart and to be singled out as the weak link is a very powerful thing. All this could be used to stew upon it, to delve and break it down imploding my already weak self confidence. But NO! No this is not going to happen, Not this time. I am using already as a motivator. I am using that pain, my scarred pride to stir the fire in my belly to never be in this situation again. This will not control me, I will be controlling it.
So next time I am tired I will think of this! Next time I am craving bad food, I will think of this! Next time I am "negotiating" my way out of an exercise session, I will think of this! I truly believe I have reached the final straw, that collection of moments that drive me out of my slumber,the moments that spawn the rise of the Alpha. Boom! Coming at Yer, Alpha and Out!
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