Ridin' the Waves

After a down in dumps Tuesday afternoon, waking up with a cold, Wednesday was looking on the same track. However after a sleep - in and general quiet morning to try and neutralise the cold I jumped out of bed and was driven out of the trough that was yesterday. I got into Uni attended lecture which I stayed alert for then moved onto the Anatomy Prac. This was my big boost for the day - my first cadaver dissection. Ok, need the back story for why dissecting a cadaver could be so rewarding, I hope so. The Back Story: the past 3 years I have been doing a degree to qualify for medicine which I then hope to turn towards surgery. Make sense now, ok. Anyway finally getting into a prac that is useful for my dream was gold and finding myself really enjoying it. I returned home elated, had a healthy dinner then some study and finally a bit of TV to cap it off.

After reaching the crest on Wednesday, Thursday started of fine enough- attended Uni, stayed awake but not necessarily alert, caught up with a mate then came home for a snooze. However pangs of the last year corrupted my mind and a great boil of anger rushed over me, leaving me tired, unmotivated and broody. It is funny how fast you attitude can change when a trigger is pushed. Anyway that brought me down I had my first real binge since returning from Tokyo but managed to avoid the night time snacking which was the positive and in the end weigh-in this morning had a neutral result nothing gained or lost. Sliding down the face towards the dark trough so hopefully another crest is not to far way. Alpha and Out